Ridiculously excited to see Zoe today. It’s been almost a year since the last time we hung out. The fuck??

So I’m awkwardly realizing that during this time last year I was probably studying for my very last final of high school. I remember spending it on the phone with Kim will putting equations into my calculator, excited as fuck to be done. It’s so weird. Like in one year so much has changed. And for the better. Except my grades but that’s another story. Who’d a thunk? What’s even weirder is that I’m more scared for next year than I was last year for this year. I never would have imagined I’d be at my desk probably about to go the Bcaf. Tehe

Ok so in the last 24 hours I’ve gone from ok every things gonna work out and life will be fine and everything is great and life isn’t gonna suck absolute man balls next year to holy shit my life is gonna suck absolute man balls and I’m not gonna make friends cause I’ve become this ridiculously odd person that doesn’t like people. I like my friends. My friends are not people. They are these marvelous human beings that I can be around for hours and hours and never be annoyed with them or have a moment of awkwardness. I love that i can sit in complete silence with them and its fine. I honestly live for non awkward silence. That and dopplegangers are two of my favorite things on this planet. So now I have to find other people to be around constantly that are as odd as I am. How in the fuck am I gonna find that. Now I’m just ranting in the hopes I’ll look back at this next year and laugh and realize how stupid i was for even wasting time thinking about it but like meh. i love my friends and i hate that i won’t be with them as much next year.